sigh

i remember one year ago the vtu shootings.
i remember, one year ago, you still loved me.
i remember, how msn didn’t deliver the messages and i went to sleep with my msn on…
and you thought something happened to me when you didn’t get my replies…
i wonder..how you did your early morning exam in that condition…
i remember, [...]

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unwanted

i cannot find a place to fit in…
i am just like a speck of dust…floating around…settling down on a shelf somewhere for a brief moment in time…then the wind comes…and then i’m off floating around again…
hoping that i will find somewhere to land on…
but then…the wind, it comes…and i keep floating on…not finding a place [...]

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The reason

Sometimes I wonder why I’m going for this exchange.
Yes it is true that it’s been my dream to study in UK.
And I’m really happy to be able to fufill this dream.
But what started it all…
Why did I even take the first step to apply?
It’s all because of you.
You know how you hurt me so much?
Yeah.
At [...]

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Protected: Christmas… sad time of the year

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Protected: yesterday

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disappointment

just let time pass faster, let me leave this place faster… it’s all just an endless headache, why did i even wanna organize the gathering in the first place, why am i so busybody, just cannot let anything be…
next time i know, just hold myself back, don’t need to take the initiative to organize anything, [...]

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This semester

I’m in the library right now, its 10pm.
I just can’t describe this heavy hearted feeling that’s pulsating throughout every vein, every nerve of my body right now.
I feel like shutting down, just going away, disappearing.
One semester has passed. One semester of being alone. One semester of enduring everything – good and bad – alone.
I am [...]

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