well, the last day of 2007.
recap time!
January
went back to uni after one month break. reunited with bb after not seeing for 28days. ‘engage’ : fast & pray with crusade. cheerleading contest thingy. making the decision..and told him.
February
day of prayer. highlighted my hair. valentine’s day. really a mixture of happiness and sadness.
March
Problems started. Studies too tough. Turned to him instead of Him. Stressed with studies, drifting away from God. Basically a mess.
April
Things got better or so I thought. Exams. Mapling. not studying. lived in a dream. everything went downhill from here.
May
Entreuprenuership course. met the girl who was about to be my good friend. phantom of the opera. little did i know that was the last time we shared the same air.
June & July
Dead to the world, living zombie, refused to get up and remained deaded and lifeless. basically a total waste of time. just press *delete* so i don’t have to remember anything that happened in this 2 months. don’t need to remember anything. nothing happened. only thing worth remembering is that in between there i met my darl peipei.
August
Forced to get up. school’s starting. confused. new roomie. dislike. hated life. got single room. moved. kiat’s here. infuriated because i cannot even spend time with my good friend without causing rumours to spread like fire. baka…
September
internal conflicts. external mess. my bday came and went w/o notice. going to uk? started guitaring.
October
celebrated bday again during the lowest point. the one whom i thought cared didnt. no more money. starved self to the point of painful gastric and vowed never to do that again as i waited for that night to pass. got the horrible news from kj. hated my stupidity which caused a dear friend to suffer.
November
celebrated my cadeau. library hunting. exam stress n preparation. BTW.
December
back at home. Christmas. Meta. packed everything home.
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2007 was another utter waste of time.
I would redo everything again if I had the chance.
I screwed up way too many times in so many areas.
I made so many wrong decisions.
I chose so many wrong things.
I wanna redo my whole life again.
Starting from the day I was born.
No.
No no.
I’ll screw it up again anyway.
No matter what I do I’ll make some kind of screwy mistake and then… sigh.
I cannot take things into my own hands.
I did not create me. I don’t know me.
You do.
And that is enough.
happy new year.
