exams!

Wow the exams are here! I’ve just finished my first paper yesterday, Linear Algebra 2. woot yay! thanks for all the prayers and support, I made it through!! i could prove the last question! Thanks God for giving me inspiration, 7% fell from heaven yesterday! i never could have done that kinda question [...]

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i can’t be smart anymore

this feeling is quite alien to me, not knowing anything in class. i’ve been experiencing it since i entered university here in a foreign land, and i’ve been struggling.
this semester, my struggles seem even worse, much worse than the previous semesters. probability I is really killing me. i don’t know how.
yesterday i felt so depressed, [...]

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The past few days have been a mixture of disappointments, happiness and confusion.
First up, the party.
On that day I spent the whole morning and afternoon studying, and was exhausted by the time I came back to prepare for the gathering. Still well, the gathering turned out quite alright, I hoped they all enjoyed themselves, with [...]

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disappointment

just let time pass faster, let me leave this place faster… it’s all just an endless headache, why did i even wanna organize the gathering in the first place, why am i so busybody, just cannot let anything be…
next time i know, just hold myself back, don’t need to take the initiative to organize anything, [...]

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This semester

I’m in the library right now, its 10pm.
I just can’t describe this heavy hearted feeling that’s pulsating throughout every vein, every nerve of my body right now.
I feel like shutting down, just going away, disappearing.
One semester has passed. One semester of being alone. One semester of enduring everything – good and bad – alone.
I am [...]

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